I am scared, but I am brave

I am sad, but I am happy.

I see chaos everywhere,

But I seemed to be at peace.

I am living, but slowly dying

I am asleep and yet I am awake.

I want to run away,

But I know not where to run.

I am grateful for everything,

But why do I feel so empty inside?

The sun is scorching my skin,

But my heart is frozen dry.

Am I really lost,

If I don’t want to be found?

I am me, but I wish I was someone else.

I think, therefore I am …

I love, therefore I exist.

I know what’s to be done,

But I refuse to do it anymore.

I know my organs are hard at work,

But my mind tells me its all a lie.

I am walking far and wide,

Like the crimson sun shone on the ocean’s tide.

I travel to distant places in my mind

But my bed beckons me to not leave its side.