I don’t know where to start

I don’t know where to begin

I know the end is only the beginning

But I don’t know where to begin…

My thoughts tell me to run away

My body insists on staying this way

The more I tell myself to believe

The more I let my past relieve…

They say I have acute depression

A disease of the mind that will soon go away

I am not so convinced with this impression

My hopeless mind tells me Madame, I here to stay…

I don’t know when to say yes and when to say no

My pain replaced by a gradual numbness

They say I am healing but I am hurting you know

Like a curse bewitched, succumbed to exhausting tiredness…

Sleep left me a long time ago

My nights are trapped in an empty desert

Happy dreams seem to touch and go

Nightmares won’t go away, they assert.